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It's funny how much of a roller coaster life is all of a sudden. Today wasn't so bad. I guess it might have been hormones. Or maybe it's the music therapy. I've been overthinking everything but it all goes out of my head when I hear a good piece of music. All the voices, all the nagging thoughts, all the negativity - gone. Just a pure, blessed release. There are not a lot of pieces that bring me to that spiritual level but Ravel's Concerto in G will do it. And after that, I am just awed, silent, cleansed, focused.

I wish I had a piano here again but I'll wait patiently another year. I still remember being a teenager and promising myself one day I'd have a house with a baby grand piano in it. It'll be my treat to myself. I will just have a shack with a piano in it and sleep under the piano if that's all I can afford, like the rose cottage in the forest. Haha. 

My violin was a little hoarse today. I can't tell if it's just me being rusty, the restrung bow, the new rosin, or what. I should spend more time with it instead of running to my computer the moment I get home. There's something really satisfying about developing calluses on my fingers again.